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 continuing with the whole updating frequently thing—

went to bed at like 9:30 last night which is CRAZY but like, I'd had free time all the way from noon until then, which meant 9 hours of completely open time. So I honestly feel pretty satisfied with myself for managing to fill all that time. Took an exam, called the boyfriend, labelled a bunch of my pinecones (we're due to make another full string of them!! very excited), did beta-reading for the boyfriend, took a break to update my note-doc with a bunch of new info on characters, did some art for the boyfriend, went to bed.

Hmm. Noticing a trend. Idk, giving me fun projects to do is a significant perk of this relationship. 

Oh, and I wrote poetry! Forgot that one. Not for the boyfriend (nope nope I take that back. one was for him and the other two were not). There are daily poetry prompts, with weekly themes, and this week I've been a bit stuck, because the theme is "Who we are when nothing is being asked" so like. No expectations, and what that's like. Except I feel like I have expectations all the time, so these prompts really left me at a loss for a bit. Still do, but I'm working at it, and I think that's kind of the point? To make you think about things you wouldn't do naturally.

Good news! I was worried about figuring out storage for the stuff in my apartment, but turns out you can just pay the apartment people and they'll let you keep all your stuff in your room for the summer. This is very very good for me. Much less on my plate now. I do have several projects due that I will fail the class without, so that's uh. Fun. I don't want to think about it.

Craving donuts. I dunno what it is about those (and Zebra Cakes) specifically but I have a weakness for them both. And powdered donuts filled with custard. It's like... just that specific vibe, I suppose. Vanilla cake, but no frosting. I hate frosting, but none of those three things have frosting. So we're good (I mean. Only if you count really liking food that's terrible for me as good)

Discovered that my blue Salvia that I'd been keeping in a Darth Vader cola can for a month or so had dried, but it was still purple! Turns out it's the kind of flower that dries really really well. I wish I had gotten more of them!!! But the two stems I have, I've put on my desk where they will live for the foreseeable future. I'm so so so happy because those, specifically, are currently my favorite flowers, and outside they're all dying out mostly. So now I have these to keep year-round!!!

 

 

okay I guess there were more photos sorry folks

none of the above poems are mine, I found them on HelloPoetry and was struck by them that's all
 

photodump λ

Blond one is Tharris and Blue one is Ffe’ud. The “psalm” was written by yours truly

some cool art or some such

 I dunno if these are showing up with good quality. I hope they are :/ but the first one is of Killik hives on Alderaan in SWTOR, and the second is of another artist's OC, Aelis, during the Battle of Ilum (also in SWTOR)

Card (tea)

 shout out to sam for badgering me out of inactivity <3

 hmm what has even happened. I don't remember what has happened.

bad news first! I still don't have a debit card and I also still don't have a car. Which is to say the car isn't operating at 100% capacity and also it will keep breaking down unless several things are fixed and fun fact this will cost a Lot of Money so now it's just not an option

which means a road trip is not an option

That's fine, I think. I didn't really want to drive 7 whole days on my own anyway. 2 days? cool. Three days? maybe. Not seven days, though, ESPECIALLY because half of them would be in, like, Nebraska and such. Corn corn corn as far as the eye can see... but no, now I'm getting flown home instead. Which is better, I think, except that now I can't just pack all my stuff into the car, I'm going to need to work out storage and such.

My only final is this weekend. I'm not worried. What I am worried about is the Religion project(s) that are due, also by this weekend. That is bad. If I don't do them and do well at them, I will fail the class.

I'm a little too tired right now to actually be emotionally excited, but please believe me when I say I'm very very excited to be going to Michigan over the summer. It's been a long long time coming. Among other things, we've got plans to hang out by the river, visit a flea market, go to art museums, get frozen yogurt -- 

I love trips like these. I'm very very excited

I've gotten into actively doing SWTOR recently! I've made several new characters I'm excited about and so I'm playing them through their class stories and expanding their lore/character stuff :)). And I got Nathan to play through with one of them, which is great! I've been looking for a SWTOR friend for ages. So far, he isn't really a fan of the story he's doing, but I'm hopeful it'll get more interesting once we get out of the Prologue. Also, I think I give up on things a little too quickly, when they look like they aren't going to work out. Perhaps a side effect of having things frequently not work out with family members, lol. We don't always have a lot of common interests.

 I'm gonna post an image dump as well -- I'll include my new characters as well as some art I did for Artfight (I talked about what that is in the previous post, if you're wondering). As always, reminder that there's an ask document in the Intro post! I always enjoy getting asks about my characters :) 

 

Card (bicycle)

Art!! I’d been working on a piece of art for a prompt for a while, and this one in particular was important to me because I was trying to make something with color and shading, to fill a whole canvas. I don’t make backgrounds very often, but I actually enjoy making them much more than drawing characters, I think. I made characters originally because I was imitating my friend, and she was interested in costume design. That’s how it is lol I just kind of pick up everyone else’s interests. I piggyback. 

But yeah, I think I like background. Landscapes. I went to the temple the other day and sure a bunch of them were people (Jesus or scripture stories or whatever) but a whole lot more were mountains and forests and fields and just. Sooo much majesty!

Anyway, for some reason I signed up for a summer art exchange, so I’m gonna be working on art of a stranger’s Sith OC getting coffee with his girlfriend. Which. You know, I’ll figure it out, but it just seems a bit ironic that I’ve decided I like landscapes just in time to draw two characters :/

Artfight has also started!! Biggg monthlong art event where you post original characters on the website, and everyone makes art of each other’s characters. Except it’s also a competition, sort of. I’m ignoring that bit, though.

I’d like to do at least a few attacks for that, but not right

now. I’ve got a lot of other things on my plate.

Like poetry, for example! I know I talked about that last time but I’m still doing it, like a half hour a day to write and read poetry. I like that it makes me feel stuff. Maybe it’s like cartharsis, the way sad stories bring that out. But I think a lot of stories let details get in the way, and poetry doesn’t, as much. I suppose you could say poetry is lazy? But I think it also lets individual lines carry more weight. It’s like, if there isn’t a lot said then there’s meaning in everything. No filler.

So yeah, I’ve been doing that. Unfortunately, most of the poetry that people might relate to is also about them, so I can’t really send it :<

Card (fingers)

 By jove, I seem to have neglected posting! Alright men man the oars we’ve got people to update

…Uhh. 

What has even transpired the last week??

Bio test, BIG bio test. Learned literally none of it in the days leading up to the exam, got an extension, got through the unit in three days and passed the exam best nicely on Wednesday

Made a hellopoetry account on a whim. Nathan has one and occasionally posts there and, you know, I’ve got poems. So I figure, why not?

The website has daily prompts! So I’ve been doing those lately, because I’m in a poetic mood. Philosophizing. It seems I have a knack for turning nearly any conversation into a commentary on human nature, and I’m not entirely sure that’s a good thing. I’m musing about all that but most people don’t on a daily basis. So

Keep forgetting to account for being emotionally numb. There are a number of things I would have handled better this week if I’d kept that in mind.

I keep hearing about the awful heatwave. Over here, it’s somewhere in the 80s and very cold at night and I’m very grateful. 

Sam is still gone for the week. I miss her :((

I’ve been feeling pretty weird the last few days. In general. Didn’t really feel like wearing much of anything so I tied scarves around my entire torso for the compression and walked around in my raincoat. I dunno what I’m going to do I don’t like any of my clothes or being outside or existing as a sentient being or