- as opposed as I generally am to starting Christmas "too early" (or actually, Christmas in general) I am already playing "Last Christmas" on repeat and you cannot stop me. It's annoying and dumb enough to be contrarian so
- again I continue to be amazed by tutoring. What do you mean I now understand the material better?? Black magic I say
- winddddd why must thou exist. What’s the point of constructing cool outfits or doing my hair when they will be ruined by the wind before I get to any of my classes???
- Julius Caesar is being performed in a few weeks. I am HYPED
- winter has set in and after a brief few months of taking initiative we are back to doing everything at the last minute. Normal procrastination or the onset of depression? Who knows????
I make ONE (1) post about Ben Solo and suddenly I'm getting tons of notifications and likes! It's been reblogged a bunch of times, over 50 likes and just... sigh.
I know it makes sense that a more busy fandom with more activity will like my posts more, but it's disheartening to constantly get my hopes up that someone was interested in my ACTUAL INTERESTS and then find out that nope, it's just 10 more likes on the Ben Solo meme.
/rant
anywho... today there were like five different things vying for the Thursday Evening slot on my schedule and I'm not entirely sure I picked the right ones? There's THRIVE, D&D, an Autism Mentoring Program board game social, a friend's video project she wanted me to be an extra for, and a potluck hosted by my BYUI 101 Class. I picked the last one and ditched the rest - some on accident because I forgot they existed, some on purpose. It was a good social, though, so I think I'm going to put this down as a success?
writing. writing is hard that is all
thanksgiving. what am i doing for thanksgiving?? i am so done with planning things
I want to learn how to ski or mountain bike. Both are very popular in this area, but I'm just not really sure how to do it. Maybe once I have a job I will sign up for a skiing class because I've always wanted to learn.
note to self pineapple is really good for potlucks. You buy one, cut it up, dump it in a bowl and voila that's your contribution. And most people don't bring fruit to potlucks so it's likely to be appreciated!
also just found out today that sister missionaries can wear suits and dress shirts! what a relief. I was worried that I would have to buy a bunch of dresses and feel like I look terrible for my entire mission, but NOPE i'm good to go, I can get a couple short sleeve dress shirts and a skirt and two pairs of pants and be all set --
there's occasionally something nice about having a day absolutely crammed full of stuff. Since my first class at 9 am I basically have one thing right after another with only about half an hour of break in between until 8 am. I thought that today would be awful but it wasn't! I've been engaged for nearly the whole day and I haven't had any opportunities to rot my brain! I've absolutely had to make sure that I take brain breaks between classes so I don't get overwhelmed, but mostly we're doing ok!
other random things
- snacks are good to have when you will be out and about a lot. and being out and about a lot is good because it means I stay away from the ~den of temptation~ (to do absolutely nothing useful for long periods of time)
some good snacks:
- beautiful warm day today I have no doubt I would be doing much worse if it was depressing cold and wet out. But it's warm! the sky is blue! I will be spending my next free block laying on the grass staying up at the sky and I am not sorry
- devotional today! it was about "adventure". going out of your comfort zone is important and we should not get stuck in only easy things but go out of our comfort zone, do things with our body and mind that are really really hard and test our limits (like backpacking).
This inspired me - I was worried about whether the classes I chose for the winter semester were too difficult. But this felt like an encouragement that I'm doing good and I should go through with it. I thought about not going to devotional at all, because I was so busy! but I'm really glad I went.
- don't think about it too much! if you don't remember you're functioning on <4 hours of sleep then how can anyone prove that you are???
- killer outfit. Like you have no idea how much of an energy boost this can be
- give yourself space to be at lower capacity than usual. Don't push yourself to do things that aren't necessary, even though with little sleep your mind might be so scattered that it wants to try all sorts of inadvisable extra stuff
- remind yourself of fictional characters who had it way worse and still got up and did what had to be done (many villains manage to do an almost superhuman amount of stuff while also being substantially more miserable than the hero. is it possible to learn this power)
- did I mention the killer outfit? also killer music. Like find as much epic music as possible and just borrow the energy for yourself. with airpods you can have music going pretty much going the whole day if you need to
dude the names in this area? Way more fun. We have…
- Skye
- London
- Bronx
- Mercedes
- Canada
- Sebastian (a normal name in books but I didn’t know a SINGLE Sebastian back home)
Stay tuned for more funky names✨
