because i dont. know anything, actually

the sun is BEAUTIFUL outside right now. it's gorgeous.

I don't know what's wrong with me but the last few days I just keep noticing how beautiful things are. I see art and go sdljfklsdkfjksldfj and I see the sky and I go woiehgskjdvn I see a poem and I'm just spinning around screeching because ahhhh the vibes!!

I don't know what to do with this. There are Emotions and I do not know what to do with them except that they are there and if I don't do something with them I feel like I will explode. Notttt a pleasant feeling. It's pleasant until it gets stuck and then it's like okay okay can we get on with things now

I've taken to eating my potato soup and mac-and-cheese leftovers together!! Mix them together. I think mac-n-cheese might be kinda too much on its own, but it makes excellent seasoning for other food. It's really just cheese and noodles and those go with just about everything...

have i mentioned the sky is beauitful. it's this beautiful mix of orange and light purple outlinging the trees and buildings right outside my window, and it just rained so there are sparkling raindrops right on the window!!!! this is exactly why art feels so unattainable. whatever I can do will pale in comparison to grass and trees and clouds because you can't feel it. so what's the point? GO TOUCH GRASS

wrote a poem. very nice. I think I'm getting the will to write back, at least a little. we'll see if doing homework tomorrow quashes that