musings

 - If you struggle with something that you lack, or a weakness that you have, or something you wish was different but can’t change, the best thing to do is acknowledge it and then move on and think about other things. Fixating on something you can’t have only brings suffering in the end

- couldn’t sleep because of the adhd meds. I spent the time between 10 pm and 1 am alternating between doing some chill activity and trying to sleep. Never done that before, it was kinda cool to experience life as an insomniac but I hope to heaven it isn’t a continuing trend lollll

- weird thing is, I usually spend those three hours rotting on the internet, but yesterday I was totally fine to 1) read a nice book 2) read the scriptures 3) just kinda vibe on the couch with a blanket

- so uh. The good news is the adhd didn’t bother me at night like it usually does. The bad news is that it didn’t bother me primarily because I was on a stimulant that made it impossible to sleep #counterproductive

- things are better now that I have more things in my schedule. THRIVE helps, as does my new religion class (which is really fun! I’m really happy to be there)

- I even went to Institute yesterday, I never do that. I went to Institute and doodled in the back and didn’t process a word that was said but hey! It got me out of the house.

- church stuff or songs remind me of my own characters and stories all. the. time. I’m honestly not sure if that’s a good thing (because my stories reflect the gospel) or a bad thing (because it means I’m thinking about Star Wars in church)