day #230482 of break with yet another totally open day *depressed party horn noise*
well turns out i can write! that's weird but cool. is it good writing? not at all. but we're doing it. I feel like the way I'm writing is coming out significantly different from how normal people write but I can't quite figure out what it is that I'm missing/adding by accident??
i have like a bunch of ideas spinning around of stuff I want to do but I keep just kind of running back and forth BETWEEN the things not doing any of them. ooh i want to that one *runs toward it* wait what about that one *runs toward it* but I never actually get to anything long enough to stay and settle on it. it's making me feel mildly frenetic!
keep waking up early, which is good for school but not so good for mental health and such lol. I've been trying to get to bed earlier and the plus side is I usually start winding down at the correct time! the minus side is the "winding down" keeps getting away from me and then I end up going to bed an hour and a half late because I was scribbling in my little notebook.
for a while the thing that I struggled with was having too little ideas or story things but now I'm working on stories that have like a bunch of moving parts and I'm like okay so I have this idea and this idea and this idea but I have no idea whether they're all from the same puzzle or not. am I making one story with these, or one story and multiple aus? or maybe I just have a bunch of pieces of stories but not enough to make anything coherent which means I'm still basically where I was at before...
plan for the day: try to go to the library and get a book or too. and read them, lol, because lots of times I get books and then don't read them and return them without having read them at all. whee
also probably do some school stuff that I have to do. maybe cook something. hopefully eat something wholesome.
and uhhh yeah. that's it that's the vibe of the day
Little ADHD bird :>>>>>>
ReplyDeleteThat little depressed party horn noise, I understood exactly what you meant and it was pretty funny 🤣
Good that you're working on sleep!!
I've been reading recently too and it was not great for my time management skills :<<<<< but the series was really good!
exactly what you said about reading, but instead substitute scrolling. not good for me! it's killing my creativity AND eating up all my spare time
Deletei ~did~ get some books, though. One was about Hitler and his military blunders that allowed the Allies to win. Fascinating read.
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