december 17

 - went to physics final at 7 o’clock in the morning. Totally dark out, raining, wind was crazy. The five min I was walking to class I legit hated my existence

- actual exam was.. ok. I prayed for help and was able to figure out all the problems, despite struggling with them on the past. That’s a win. There’s at least one problem I know I will get marked down because I forgot to write down the G constant and I needed it. Hopefully they won’t take off too much??

- now I’m sitting in the library. I’m really hungry but also I will have to walk through the cold and wet to get home and I don’t even have very good food there? And I’m tired. Maybe I will just take a nap on this couch. Not entirely sure how I will get myself OFF the couch as I am hungry and tired and will only get more of both with time. More at 11 I suppose 

decemeber 16 also but it's later in the day *wow*

so sometimes I have high creativity, sometimes not. apparently sometimes my creative tides turn into a tsunami and I have one BIG idea all at once and sit at my computer for hours typing it all out. I kept wishing for more creative juice and I got it! guess that shows me to be careful what I wish for. Maybe slow-drip creativity is actually fine. at least it puts less strain on my poor behind which had to sit in a cheap folding desk chair for three hours straight

also unrelated: i got a big jar of applesauce and about a week later it started smelling and tasting like apple cider vinegar. so. maybe it fermented?? that did NOT happen with my last applesauce jar so maybe this one is just ~spicy~ 

got a late birthday present from my friend on a mission. that was uhhh really sweet and also quite unexpected, since we only communicate via email. she sent me three painted rocks! and a letter. usually I don't care much about gifts but that one was really touching because I didn't expect it at ALL. that's why we should just totally detach gift giving from Christmas. Just give gifts because you love people, don't make it a social expectation. Like bruh if it's a social expectation it is also no longer really meaningful to me as an expression of affection. At least with family, I feel like either you give stuff and it's expected, or you don't and it's offensive. Either way there's not a lot particularly positive about it especially if we're actively encouraging kids to present their parents with a list of stuff they want bought for them. In that case, it's not even reciprocal!!!

was talking with another friend, he told me about what his family does and it sounded like something I'd really like. Instead of parents getting everyone gifts, instead they do "secret santa" and each person only has to get a gift for ONE other person. The parents pay for all the gifts but the kids pick the present out! and presumably wrap it and stuff. I really like that and I feel like it's much better for kids so they can focus on what to get their siblings instead of just writing a really long letter to Santa of stuff that they want for themselves. 

december 16

 It is well and truly finals season now… the living room  is squeaky clean because our white glove check is soon, I’m sitting in a common study area that’s usually packed with people and not a soul is here besides me. The campus feels empty and this will get worse with time…

I’m at my personal halfway point for finals. The two important classes are Greek and Physics and I have the following stuff to do:

- physics: turn in as much missing work as I can before the deadline that was yesterday. That’s done

- now it’s all up to the final to determine my final grade. I’ll be taking that tomorrow.

- Greek final was a takehome packet I got yesterday. We went over the whole thing in class today including having each person write their answers up on a board where everyone else was encouraged to take pictures.

- since I actually did the packet myself beforehand and felt pretty good about it, it almost felt kind of anticlimactic to get to class and have everyone get told the answers? Sigh. 

- and I have until the end of the week to get in missing work. That’ll be what I’m doing tomorrow afternoon and the next day, most likely. 

- every other class is pretty much done. I’ve got 80s, maybe a few 90s. Not stellar but not terrible either!

- trying my best to avoid burnout. It’s a real danger. Going to try to take breaks, go on walks, exercise. Food situation isn’t great because it’s the end of the semester but we do the best we can and it should be okay. I’ve got bread and milk and yogurt which means I’m lacking produce but otherwise ok.  

they arrts

 

december 15

 Well today wasn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be. Got a surprising amount of stuff done with the power of ✨✨✨external accountability✨✨✨

- just kinda birbed through class. Both classes said they would be doing review but spent quite a lot of time NOT doing review. So. THIS IS WHY ITS HARD FOR ME TO GO TO CLASS

- body doubled. Then worked on physics for a few hours with a friend. Then she was like, let’s help you hang up that wall art you’ve been wanting to put up!! So… we did that? Then I met up with the local Physics Major Friend and I just wanted help with one problem but it turned into an hour and a half of chilling and studying. 

Turns out he’s actually dealing with the class the same way I am, only on steroids because he can solve most of the problems in his head and neglected to do the majority of homework assignments. So. But we did puzzle out the initial problem eventually.  

- art building always has art presentations going on! I mentioned earlier in the semester I looked at that, and now they have a Christmas themed exhibit so I stopped by to look at that. They even had two Rembrandt pieces which. Okay FLEX

- my end of year grades are actually looking pretty decent — 80s and 90s, with a single 77 for physics and long as I do well on the final exam that shouldn’t be an issue. Certainly not as good grades as I’d like, but pretty good for my courseload and mental health. So!!

- I think after my physics exam I will go get a smoothie or something. Do something to celebrate the end of the semester, or maybe it’ll be a concilation drink to deal with the exam going poorly? Either way. And then I’ve got a white glove check 💀 but you know what we’re gonna make it through one way or another

them clothes parte tres

  https://drive.google.com/file/d/12Z_cffUHBQrmG-F1O61SkWQAo3Q7ocFC/view?usp=drive_link

There was a final walk of everyone in the fashion show - video was too long for blogger lol so have a google drive link instead

them clothes parte deux