and the rain stopped falling

 day one of new meds... again...

now we're off the antipressants AND the ADHD meds because both of them were triggering episodes. We do not like this!! (we is me and my psychiatrist, who I met with three weeks ahead of schedule yesterday because I was feeling so weird)

so. turns out the sudden wave of intense general anxiety I've been feeling the last few days was a second hypomanic episode. Suddenly a lot of things make sense (huge amounts of anxiety during the endowment, suddenly feeling really happy even though I'm also feeling physically terrible, suddenly having huge amounts of get-stuff-done energy even though I'm exhausted...)

I am now ON a mood stabilizer (long term) and also a short-term mood stabilizer that has a side effect of helping with sleep. I take that one right before bed and it basically just knocks me out within half an hour of taking it. Which is good because I have had trouble sleeping!

Things we're watching out for, now:

- depression or anxiety getting WORSE instead of better

- any physical issues that are strong enough to make functioning difficult, or severely impact quality of life

and yeah I've got another meeting with the psychiatrist (awesome dude. I recommend) in a week!