slow down on monday

 the suddenness of how well I am currently doing is really really weird. I'm having trouble adjusting.

- suddenly thinking about fun things like The Future and My Major and What I Want To Do With My Life

- praying more (not much. but more)

- it makes me happy when the sky is pretty

- i notice the presence of Other People more wheras before I mostly just ignored that they exist

- I no longer feel the constant urge to Think About The Characters or write things about them or draw things about them. Yeah, I could do it. But I won't DIE if I don't, which is how it felt two week ago

 - I'm getting executive function impulses again, like "oh yeah I should do laundry" "oh yeah I should do homework because it's due tomorrow" and then I just. do the thing. It's MAGIC

That said. I am a bit worried about how long this will last. How do I maintain this good feeling and do something useful with it, rather than falling back into bad habits or relapsing? When I no longer need the coping skill that's taking up the majority of my free time, what do I do instead?? I have a lot of free time and not a lot of ideas of how to use it productively, and that concerns me.

 

THRIVE suggests reflecting on how the day went and specifically noticing self-care strategies I used and whether they worked. Some things about today, I suppose:

- Doing laundry. got me out of the house and outside. good stuff

- Going places. Going to the Majors and Societies Fair, even though I was tired and didn't manage to do the whole thing

- Eating a delicious cinnamon roll

- listening to my body and leaving when I started feeling bad, rather than trying to stick it out and attend the whole thing

- Watching Doctor Who instead of scrolling

- Taking an Advil when I felt feverish rather than just sticking it out like I usually do

- phone call with my mom

- laying down when I felt like I needed it

- cooking. the end result wasn't very good, lol, but at least I did it and it kept me busy and productive.

- Thursday has a completely free schedule, except for THRIVE, and I think today I managed the best of any of the Thursdays this semester. I've barely been on Tumblr at all and I'm feeling mostly really good, although I did get a bit bored sometimes.

- I need to remember that not all days are going to be this great, and I can and will make mistakes. But a good day like this is proof that good days do exist, and I am capable of doing them.