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 Sigh. One of my online friends is being less active right now, and I hope it’s not just that they don’t like me. I don’t think so, but I am a little worried. In the past, he would often start conversations over chat a lot, but he doesn’t do it as much now and whenever I try and start something he seems like he doesn’t really want to talk very much. I think he’s just busy with school or something?

In other news

- I’m waiting to have a medication appointment and it’s standard procedure to have anyone who comes in fill out a form with depression and anxiety symptoms. Whee… it’s been kinda cathartic to go through and be like yeah, I’m experiencing that and that and that. And all of those things DID make my life difficult, thanks for asking!

- went to my class in my Star Wars pajama pants. Walked all the way there from my house which meant everyone who passed me got to see my fuzzy X wingssss

- it’s fine lol. I made it to class, I did my laundry, I didn’t lose my key fob 💯

- fun thing about being depressed is you have a good few hours and you’re like yeah, we’re chill, glad we’re done with THAT

- then it comes back and for some reason you’re surprised. Wait, I’m feeling the way I usually feel?? What a surprise!

- medication guy immediately prescribed me both antidepressants and ADHD meds. After hearing horror stories about how hard it is to get medication that was actually incredibly painless

- started playing hogwarts mystery, which is a mobile Harry Potter game! It’s pretty bad, I probably won’t keep playing it and instead just look up all the companion conversations somewhere because I want to make Harry Potter universe characters but the actual mechanics of the game are awful

- I’ve decided to draw a bunch of my characters for Valentine’s Day! Like draw each character with the person that they’re closest to (not necessarily romantic). I don’t know if I will finish everything in time but it’s a good motivator to keep drawing even when I don’t always feel like it