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 Another school day. It’s not as hellishly cold as it was last semester which is very very nice

- last glove is officially lost. We have graduated to wearing socks on our hands

- perfect V of honking geese flew by overhead as I walked to one class. It was a sight but more than that it was a SOUND

- right now I don’t even have both classes meeting! Creative writing meets as usual but the teacher for PolySci had a conference and both class meetings of the week were cancelled. Legit I only have two hours of class in the whole week

- managed to turn in first wave of creative writing!! Two poems. I need to work on writing more stuff to keep up, maybe I’ll go find a set of writing prompts or something? I need to not let perfectionism get in the way here 😬

- first clean check of the semester! I’m not worried.

- it’s… weird. The friend situation. I have friends but most of them are long distance or only communicate via email. There isn’t really anybody who lives nearby I feel comfortable hanging out with besides this one guy but he’s a guy so that makes it hard

- both of my good friends are now on missions. Maybe I should just go on a mission so that when I get back they’ll be back as well. And we can be boring RMs together

- a classmate said that he’s able to handle a much larger courseload now that he’s married and that makes ZERO sense to me. You’re telling me that you have another person living with you that you have to devote social energy to and this makes it EASIER to do school? Not only do you have to do school but you also have to keep your living space organized and take showers on occasion because there’s a person around who could be uncomfortable if you didn’t???? WHY 

- (I know why. Most people find social things relaxing and see them as a break from “hard stuff”. For me, social things are another task of many that ALSO takes energy. Different brain —> different view of marriage and energy)

- frustrating to not have any new ideas for stories or character stuff. Real life has made me less brainrotted but this also means it’s hard to think of cool stuff… and cool stuff is pretty much the only way I interact with people, is telling them abt my stuff. So if I have no stuff… how do I talk with people???