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-  so so sooo much wind today 

- made homemade ziploc bag ice cream at THRIVE. was okay. should not have made two bags

- the lesson was on meaning. this has always been somewhat of a sore topic for me as I have struggled with feeling like life is meaningful since junior year (something something my life's meaning WAS productivity and being good at school. take that away and junior year me was very much lost. still am)

 anyway we went around and shared one thing that was meaningful, each of us. i said my doodling and by extension my art. it is a way to acceptably fidget in class as well as express myself. it is also how I realized i like the process of presenting something to someone and seeing them react positively. hopefully my future job will include this as well

-  current fanfic reading experience: *pulls up fic* nope *pulls up fic* nope *pulls up fic* ooh this looks promising... nope. *pulls up fic* why was this even tagged with The Character, it's a 1 chapter WIP and The Character is not anywhere in it?? *pulls up fic* nope

frankly fanfiction for this particular character is a waste of time. knowing this does not tend to much affect my choices after midnight 

-  absolutely beautiful outside. does not change the fact that the wind sucks and i hate it. but from a window the sky is beautiful 

 

- shoutout to everyone who comments on stuff. I love you and it really does help sometimes when i am feeling lonely