- stake conference today and tomorrow. Hard to focus. Takeaway: trust Jesus and serve others. HOW DO I SERVE OTHERS
- auxiliary but also important - how to talk to people? There is a mixer going on, donuts and tons of people just chatting away???? How do I go up to people. How do I start conversations. If I like a guy how do I do anything with that without being weird —
- the donuts themselves were mid
- purchased chocolate chips. Often I have a craving for chocolate and chocolate chips are cheap. Also a snow shovel, to be prepared
- it is so hard to focus. I WAS blaming sleep but at this point I don’t think sleep is actually the problem. Don’t know what is the problem. Hate feeling like I can’t get birb done and it’s also mostly my fault so
- if everyone is having a terrible time, why don’t they just say so?? I would feel a lot better abt my sorry situation if I knew that a bunch of other people felt the same way. But nope we’re all super optimistic and looking on the bright side. Let’s skip past the “how are you doing” shall we and maybe just have a nice chat about Dyson spheres. Or lord of the rings. Idk. What is social connection it doesn’t exist
- catch 22 of feeling awful is that you suddenly can’t connect with anyone. Nobody wants to hear abt my funky little life least of all me but I legit don’t have anything else to talk abt or think abt :))))
- if I don’t talk to someone soon I’m going to explode. Also my brain doesn’t update the “I talked to someone” counter at all so it actually doesn’t matter if I talk to anyone? But it’s fine I won’t explode either bc nobody will see it or care and it wouldn’t help things. Perhaps banging my head against a wall or crying will help (it won’t)
If it makes you feel any better, I had a lousy day yesterday. Today was pretty good though.
ReplyDeleteIt does make me feel better, thanks! Today is also better. Singing helps, turns out. So does getting to bed on time. Mainly I just need to not doomscroll, if I could just do that I’ll be good to go 💀💀
ReplyDeleteI think the world might be a little better if people actually answered the "How are you doing" question honestly, because people would connect with each other better and have more in-depth conversations.
ReplyDeleteLike, what if I am actually doing terribly
Or what if I don't know how I'm doing
Or what if I'm having an amazing day
People still always say, "I'm good" 😑
I was JUST talking about this with my therapist. I think it would be much easier to minister, too, if your minist-ee was more honest about actually doing badly, or needing help. If someone tells me "I'm having a bad day and a cookie would really help right now" I will get that cookie SO FAST but nobody is ever that direct :(((
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