when ive grown a foot or two

 whew what a day. creative writing class in the morning, on the way there I found a bag of pills! just a ziploc bag of pills, laying on the ground outside the gym. Took it to the lost &found of course. I wonder how you would figure out what the pills even ARE? Like are they illegal drugs or medication or?? and why are they in an unlabelled ziploc bag?? many questions.

oh well. that's something for the L&F folks to figure out now

anyway i printed off my resume, four or five copies, and gave one to the library and one to deseret book. I think I would be very happy to work at both of those places. I'm also going to poke around to a few other places and also ask about their applications. Ideally, I wanna be a cashier or a front-desk receptionist-type job, so I'll just poke around and see. Since I'm Biomed, it would be great to get a job with a healthcare center, if possible. Not sure what I have to do for that, though.

as usual my religion class was an absolute banger. that teacher is so enthusiastic about his subject and totally good with discussing more tricky topics and things. I lovee his class and if I can, I'm totally going to take more classes with this specific guy. Best dude. Seems like a lot of the religion department fellows are quite good, enough that it almost makes me feel bad for not doing a theology major. almost.

more writing. wasn't really feeling it most of the time but I did get a bit of energy in the afternoon so I revised a thing I was already doing. 

did a voicecall with an online friend so he could help me figure out some technology issues. i really really don't know how technology works and it shows. I hope he wasn't frustrated with me.

 

there was a ward activity today, a Kareoke night. I was worried I wouldn't enjoy it, but actually it was quite good! we all sat in chairs and watched each person come up and sing a song, so it was kinda like a concert. I sang "Little Boxes" by Pete Seeger and I'm not super happy with how I sung because I kept getting the rhythm a little bit off but I'm glad I came up. I was really hoping to sing another song but then we ran out of time.

I also went to the hobby store today and got some more yarn, because I ran out of yarn for my scarf before. so now I have three more skeins in different colors, and I'm gonna make it a bit of a gradient. We'll see if it turns out well, but I think it will.

got some amber glasses I'm supposed to wear before bed, and so far I've barely noticed I was wearing them. I definitely look a bit strange but it's alright, generally dark orange is a color that I can pull off, and it just looks a bit like cool sunglasses. AND i don't even really go out much after sundown most of the time, so it's not like anyone would see me wearing them.

room assignments are finalized for the Spring semester. wayyy less people, which honestly makes sense. spring semester finishes in July and I don't think really anyone wants to be doing school in July. Fortunately I'm gonna be taking a light course load so if I want to go outside and enjoy myself I'll be able to do so.

I've started keeping a log in my phone of when I go to bed and stuff. scriptures, meds, general mood. hopefully it'll be helpful for something or other. maybe therapy.

it's currently a two week event for The Arcana! people are sharing things about their OCs, there are prompts... I'm trying to keep up. Not sure how many people will actually READ my stuff, but I'm gonna try anyway, especially because I'm pushing myself to draw a companion doodle for every post I do. So far, I only have actual backstories for two of the four characters. Maybe this event will inspire me to figure out the other two a bit more, or maybe I'll just work on the two I'm familiar with. Not sure, yet!

Got a CTR ring. I lost my old one and luckily you can get the exact same design at a store near me! so I got a new one for my thumb because they didn't have any small enough to go on my pinkie finger.

I've been playing Hollow Knight a bit. It's hard. I'm persisting, though. Most new games I don't like too much, but this one I'm finding is one I'm genuinely excited to play. this is good. Credit to my friend Nathan for suggesting I play it <3

wow that was long. ok. well i need to go to bed, that's a goal of mine. therapy tomorrow, woo hoo! and im planning to make chocolate zucchini bread for Gondor independence day in two days. 

*guitar riffs*

 Some days I wake up with absolutely no energy to get out of bed. One thing that helps is to grab my phone and put something fast paced and energetic on. Listening to songs helps me wake up at least a little, AND even if it never actually helps at least I listened to cool music instead of you know… just laying there >.>

The entire skein of yarn is used up and the scarf is just a nice regular rectangle of yarn. I guess I’ll need at LEAST two more skeins of the same size… which is good! Now I will do different colors. Maybe a nice gradient 🤔

Relatively good day all things considered. Church, said hi to guy I liked, hung out with my friend’s roommates, actually paid attention to talks AND lessons which is not a frequent occurrence. Did a bit of drawing after not really drawing at all for a while. 

Went with a friend to water plants, I was a bit too tired to enjoy it but I did get to meet her cousin and he was cool

Stadium singing 🔥🔥 highly recommend. Almost missed it because I got carried away with a project but I’m glad I came cuz I got to see an acquaintance I hadn’t talked to in a while :))

Got home, decided to be productive and make good decisions so got ready for bed and then… spent like an hour cleaning the whole apartment which was a mess. I’m glad I did because it looks nicer now but… bruh that was not on the agenda. We may be getting into another episode folks, buckle up

you should see the other guy

 - candles are so cool. I can light a candle in my room and leave the door open and after about an hour the whole house smells like lavender. Amazing. makes the entire space feel much more friendly and nice 

-  made cookies yesterday that was neat. my friend Alec said he would make cookies for whoever guessed the meaning of his last name and my roommate got it! So I helped him make snickerdoodles and also made some chocolate chip cookies of my own. They ended up tasting a little like rhubarb muffins because I had no brown sugar and compensated by putting wayyy too much molassas in.

ALSO the snickerdoodles turned out well but it's kinda crazy that they did?? We did all the ingredients and the result was flaky and WAY too dry. Couldn't hold together at all. Basically crumbs, dry cake mix. We called Alec's mom because she's the one who's the baker and she was like ?? you must have done something wrong

but like. the recipe did not call for ANY liquid to be added except for one egg. I think the recipe was wrong because once we added a careful amount of milk to the mix it morphed into perfectly normal cookie dough. The resulting cookies were also completely fine and normal and the perfect texture. So I really think there was just something missing from the recipe.

 

really getting into crocheting as a way to fidget! take my crochet bag to any sort of activity or thing where I have to focus and just. crochet, the whole time. Pull a Sister Conrad as it were. It does wonders for the focus. I plan to bring the bag to church tomorrow as well

yesterday we had a PowerPoint night, organized by one of my friends. Basically everyone who wants to prepares a 10 min powerpoint on anything they want! Then we watch through them all and get educated. Or idk. laugh a lot, because it was just made to be funny. I was surprised how many people made completely unserious powerpoints. what's the point of coming to a powerpoint night if folks are just gonna mess around and make random crud?? (this is a rhetorical question. I understand why they do it it's just very different from what I do)

I was going to make a presentation about the Sith Empire because there is ABSOLUTELY 10 min of lore there but.. idk man i just didn't have the writing vibes. I can yap about something very easily but making a PLANNED POWERPOINT PRESENTATION is an entirely different animal. WDYM i have to do pictures???

anywho. i may or may not get roped into helping my friend water plants in a hot sec so i shall end here 

 

 

all the eggs all the eggs are in the ocean

 - very warm today. sweating even in a short sleeve shirt. slightly worried about the lack of AC in my humble abode

- why is everything happening. im very sldkfjslkdjf. stuff. stuff is going on and it's all going on at the same time but at least my major is decided my crops are watered my skin is clear my depression is cured and im not eating

- i mean i am eating. just not enough

- whee

- park was FULL of people picnicking today. adorable. That would be such a fun date if I was dating anybody

- ordered a weighted blanket and candles and blue-light filtering glasses. apparently, regular sleep from 10 pm to 6 am is the optimal arrangement for bipolar folks and that is something I can control without medication side effects so im gonna do my best to make it happen

- going out for mocktails for a friend's birthday. then im doing another thing for another friend's birthday tomorrow. my other other friend also had HIS birthday on pi day and I made him a little art thing... March used to be the worst month of the year but honestly now I think it's one of the best (another reason: Galen vibes. SO MUCH. the amount of Galen vibes rn is crazy)

- nice phone call with my brother. should do those more often.

- My friend Nathen got me Hollowknight!!! that was AWESOME of him. I'm trying it out and I really really like it so far. It reminds me of Raymond Legends which is one of my favorite games

- some progress on my short story. that was nice

- learned how to use the BYUI printer! very excited about that

- it's been a decent day all things considered im just dealing with some sucky mental health things like usual. just gotta remember that my brain sucks sometimes and just because it likes to make rainclouds over me doesn't mean it's actually raining

- anyway. Im off to do mocktails. wish me luck. or don't. instructions unclear

- oh YEAH and sam brought me bread today. she is so cool 

parking ticket woes

  alright so. ive been asking around for guesses about how much the parking ticket was... we have quite a list.

In order we have

• Sam: 75
• Anna: 90
• Me: 115
• Todd: 150 
• Daniel: 200
• Both of my parents, independently: 250
• Mads: 350

SO! the grand total is... $235, from three different parking notices! they are tiered, so they go up in amount every time you land on them (much like houses in the automated version of Monopoly) 

Congrats to my mom and dad, I guess. Great minds think alike, or something

I did kinda make a promise that I'd draw something for whoever won, so let me know if you want a doodle and I'll do my best to oblige :)
 

they gotta let you out of your cage

 - dude it been a crazy day

- late to class whee

- reserved bowling stuff for later today! my co-lead was supposed to do it but something came up and he didn't tell me until i asked. so i did it in between class and my psychiatrist appointment. that was a whole thing

- new medication update! we're decreasing the dosage on the sleepy one and increasing the dosage on the other one. Also, I'm gonna get "amber goggles" for the night which block blue light

- realized my car had gone missing today. turns out it had been missing since last tuesday, when i was late to therapy and parked in the teacher parking so i could get there with at least some time to spare. then i forgot that i'd driven and walked home, leaving my car parked illegally in the teacher lot. for a week.

- went to taco bell with my friend and her sister yesterday night, to take pictures for mutual. I guess i was the moral support because all of my photo ideas they didn't like. oh well. i was helpful in some way even if it wasn't the intended way

- having SO MUCH FUN with my lavender candle. it's too bad they're so dang expensive because I would burn them ALL THE TIME if I could. 

-  had some time before FHE so i went to a couple thrift stores and bought temple clothes. this is good because the temple dress I had was way too big for me. I liked it, but they didn't have it in any smaller size and that was unfortunate

- played swtor with my friend Nathan! That was also a lot of fun.

- bowling was cool. I got the worst score of everyone there and got zero points most times but I figured it out eventually! And I brought Sam with me and she did really good (got a strike one time!) and I figure that's good enough for me

- also another guy in FHE, Alec, told me he'd played swtor before! so now that's two people who play swtor who live right by me. what are the odds??????

- anyway it's been a very full day. gonna see if i can do temple things tomorrow, but we'll see if I can fit it in with everything else.

 

 

everyone guess in the comments how much the parking fee was! I've got one guess but I want to get several more so we can make this a proper competition 

stay awhile stay awhile

 - chill day

- not actually. I’m just chill rn

- actual day I was dead on my feet for two hours and then I went to a convention at 12 pm. Hosted by the college. Lots of booths and art and cosplay and also some presentations by various teachers

- wasn’t gonna dress up but then I was like. Why not. So I dressed up vaguely D&D with my poncho and D&D brown boots and also a my red dress. For vibes

- bunch of people from the gaming group came which was neat! And I got a couple of things. Thought about getting a lot more things but I have a limited budget lol

- one I was really on the fence about: someone did character stickers and she had KPop Demon Hunters stickers. They were amazing. Unfortunately the whole Saja Boys pack was $12 and I didn’t want to only get one (feel free to guess in the comments which one I was thinking abt getting) (it’s not Jinu) so. But I did get a really nice print of Jesus 

- after that. Very much just chilling. Playing with ye olde roommate cat. Writing. Answering asks

- I finally got my older siblings to try On Together bwahaha and I’m hoping we can use it together in the future because it’s really helpful for me and it makes me feel more close with my family too

- I was feeling really stuck with writing! Just doing one thing and it was dragging on and not working so well. >:(

- but then I realized I should just let it go and work on something else… and that worked much better!! So I’m a very pleased little bird

- speaking of birds I saw several very adorable little crocheted birds at the con. Fluffy, tiny birds. Fjjdsnndjciw 

- I want to learn how to crochet. I think I will do that tomorrow