What a day (sarcastic)

 yeah it’s been a real one yall

- only one class today but it was a heck of a class

- I was supposed to bring printed copies of an assignment to class except I couldn’t get the printer to work!!!

- so I was late. AND I didn’t have the thing I was supposed to bring with me…

- in the chaos I forgot that I was supposed to be reserving a bowling lane for my FHE group. Whee. So we ended up doing a board game night instead, but that was okay. It was fun. I bought One Night Werewolf for the occasion and we had SO much fun

blah blah razzmatazz

 Some highlights from the last few days:

- the fire alarm went haywire in the apartment above us, so my friend who lives there brought her cat to my dorm. He is currently hiding under the couch

- bookbinding with Sam and her friend! Mine turned out pretty good, we bought jackets for cheap from a thrift store and used the fabric to make a hardcover for the books. I’ve got a very nicely hardcovered copy of the Lightning Thief on my shelf now

- actually fasted this fast Sunday. Usually I forget. It was a weird experience, being hungry for such a large part of the day, but I was able to push through and get things done anyway. I also cooked like three different things after church because I was bored and hungry. 

- stadium singing! Always fun, we sung “put your shoulder to the wheel” which is a favorite song of mine

- significant progress has been made with endowment and mission papers. My endowment is in less than a week and I need to work out snacks and buy the clothes but besides that we are good to go!

- a girl in the ward opened her mission call today and invited the whole ward. There was food. She’s going to the Philippines. 

the blinking lights are breaking bones

 Ugh the bad sleep has caught up to me. I got good sleep the last two nights and somehow I still feel like utter crud <3 <3

It’s all drizzly outside, too. And devotional is cancelled. I will try to get to the temple, though… I think I could use it. And there have been a lot of talks and such that have been encouraging me to go to the temple! So yeah that will probably help. But seriously I have no energy. This will be another VERY chill day today

Found my backpack and wallet today. That was good, it had been missing for a few days and I was gearing up to give it up as lost or stolen…

Doing my best to take it easy. Not the easiest thing to do, but I’m doing my best… listening to a lot of music, and writing. Drawing. Not doing home between appointments, because I know I will fall asleep or be late to important appointments…

we paint the town on our way home

 Ughhfhehajdkdmssk 

So I went to sleep at 4:30 twice in a row and yesterday I didn’t feel too bad! It wasn’t too bad at all. I had a raging headache for an hour after waking up but the rest of the day was actually pretty good… it was warm… the sun was out…

Then I woke up today and just. BLEGHFHDJSK

No matter where I am there’s constant fatigue. My head hurts. My stomach feels slightly unsettled. I legit only feel like sleeping, I just want to lay down. I don’t have the energy to keep my eyes open if I sit anywhere too long. Just. No.

I’ve been drinking a lot of water. Food stuff is okay, I got my car back from the mechanic. New fun development of the day: my backpack is missing and I don’t know where it is. I have my laptop and my phone, both are perfectly intact, but I do not have my wallet, and that is problematic. I should really start labeling stuff with my name more often.

bUt SaTuRdAy SaTuRdAy SaTuRdAy

 Well I don’t know what’s been going on but we are seriously not doing as well as we were before…

I had free time Thursday Friday and Saturday except for a single D&D thing Thursday morning… I would guess I spent a full 24 hours of that reading. Not fanfic, either! Actual books. I found two or three series that were 9-12 books long and just sat reading for hours and hours and hours. 

I DO NOT RECOMMEND BTW

I have no idea what even happened though. Last week I was just fine and this week I’m going insane. I stayed up until 5 in the morning a few days ago. 

Other news…

- getting my car inspection done! This state doesn’t require inspections but my home state does. Luckily I found a mechanic who would do it

- Good weather. It snowed buckets earlier but today it’s decently warm, for February 

- Trying to hang out with friends more. It helps. I have at least a few who do things with me sometimes and it’s really nice to have that going

- stomach is all funky. Probably the sleep deprivation? But honestly I haven’t a clue

might get loud. on FRIDAY

 current state of the union is mixed. am i doing more things than I was before? yeah, I think so. but I'm also more stressed, and on edge. I feel like I don't know how to relax anymore. Before, I was relaxed all the time to the point of not getting things done that I should, but now I feel stressed and on the one hand, it means I care about doing stuff and making things happen. On the other hand, it means I'm stressed and not relaxed and I'm not really having fun anymore.

Like I was ignoring all the stuff I had to do before, and now I'm focused on it, which is good because it needs to be done, but bad because it's stressing me out and I don't know how to deal with that. What do you do when you're stressed out about things??? 

Anyway... 

- Endowment and Mission stuff are both in progress now, which is good. I've got several interviews lined up in the next two weeks. I'm working on getting to the Health Center for a physical. I need to find a dentist somewhere... but yeah all that's moving along quite nicely.

 - Last few days since I last washed my hair, it dried weird. Like there was a tuft on one side of my face that curled up in this fluffy, floofy poof and every other part of my hair was just lying flat. It's pretty much stayed like that for the last three days, which meant that I was going places with a floofy puff of hair on one side of my face that was bouncing every time I walked. Pretty whimsical!

- went to Choirfest Saturday night, that was great! it was a performance with all the university's choirs and they each did a few songs. The audience even got to sing a hymn in the middle of it, while the different choirs changed out (there were a LOT of people in some of them). I wasn't sure I'd like it, but I ended up having a lot of fun, the music was good and some of them even incorperated parts of the room besides the middle, like there was one time when they started singing from the sides of the room, and then kept singing as they funneled up to the stage. Very funky.

- it's been really warm out, for winter. Like 50s and sunny, some days. I've been trying to get outside more to take advantage! 

not a souuuund. on WEDNESDAY

 

I've been cooking a lot of meals to pass the time, some of them turned out better than others. Like I experimented with Tofu once, that wasn't as good as I hoped. Now I have a bunch of Tofu left that I have to use up :/

I also made cheese and tuna sandwiches, which were good. I grilled them on my pan and the texture wasn't bad.

Yesterday a friend hosted a Galentine's day party, and it was a lot of fun! We watched Barbie and the Diamond Castle (nostalgia!). I brought Shoofly muffins. We played Uno. All around, a really fun time.

I am currently completely caught up with my work, except for one assignment! It's great. 

 

 

Week Two Medication Notes

- upgraded to a full tablet of antidepressant early in the week. Since then, I have had trouble sleeping and also with nausea and headaches throughout the day, especially in the mornings. I think it's just a side effect and I hope it will go away in a few days.

- Still much busier than usual, and more able to get things done. Very little interest in video games or OC stuff compared to how I usually am, leisure time is hard to come by. this might be a problem

- one or two days, I had a lurking feeling that something was wrong and I needed to fix it, like anxiety. Sometimes I have it at night, but I've had a few days where I've had that nagging feeling for a good portion of the day. I believe it's a side effect of the ADHD meds. I will try going without ADHD meds tomorrow to see if that helps.

- much higher appetite for protein, which is hard because most of the food I have on hand is not protein. We're working on it.